im having troubles with my boyfriend, i love him so so so much but i feel like im only a replacement for his exes. i wish i could talk to him more often i wish i could, i wish i could hug him but he lives in a totally different state. i feel so sad because its just i feel like he doesnt make much of an effort in the relationship. i have troubles communicating that im uncomfortable with something he cant change, i feel so selfish for even thinking about it. i try my hardest to be supporting and educated yet i feel like im inferior to him and his friends. i feel like i cant communicate to him as well as his friends. i feel like hes avoiding me, i know that probably not the case but i feel so foolish and so stupid and so embarrassed. i just wanna feel loved, i just wanna spend more than 1 or 2 hours talking to him each day, i just wanna be able to hug him.