I want someone to love me the way that i love my partner, that probably sounds confusing but i’ll explain. i’m in a long term relationship with a person i am in love with i would literally do anything for them and when i’m with them it feels like home, but they simply cannot reciprocate those feelings fully because of medication and because they are on the spectrum, we’ve talked about it plenty and i know they love me but they will never be able to love me as much as i want them to. i feel awful saying that because i know they can’t control it and i know they love me the most someone can in that situation but they’ll never know what it feels like to be as in love as i am, they are my whole world and i want to be with them more then anything but because of the situation it hurts so fucking bad to stay with them, everyday i just wish that they felt the same way i do but i know that can never happen. it hurts and i don’t know what to do, it feels so one sided even though i know it’s not. it’s awful and it hurts more then anything i’ve ever felt. i’m considering breaking it off but all i want is to be with them.