My parents split at a young age and because of that i’ve always seen my dad on the weekends. not consistently sometimes we’d go a month without seeing him because it was too far of a drive to spend one day. No matter how much time I spend with him I feel like I have no idea who he is. He says and does things I wish he didn’t do, he’s homophobic and he had a baby with a woman i’ve never met while in a relationship with another. I never knew about her until her first birthday. He has no filter and will call me out on anything. (he probably doesn’t notice it.) and when I’m around him I have anxiety over the littlest of things. I just want a relationship like my friends have. I want to feel comfortable around my own father.