Hon. I am so sorry. Itll tear your life apart, wont it? Please. Check this out. I was young. 6? I didnt know private parts or the word no.And it kept happening for years, as my mother used my great grandma for a babysitter, and her son ( my grandfather) lived their. I know. Gross huh? Family? Insest? What the h÷!!? But see. Other then the ewww factor, I have managed. At least I thought I had managed. Until I hit adult hood. And realized I thought something was wrong with me sexually.However. Check this fact out. Because EVERYBODY is diffrent, nothing is unusual. And the common asshole that tells you different, they tell u so to hide their own diffrence, and are to young mentally to admit their likes and dislikes. Throw them to the curb Theirs still more story to continue. My phone charge wont allow it. So I will continue this ASAP. For now, take courage. Theirs nothing that is causing concern except your own inability to stop focusing on it. Because I'm ok. And you are too.