today so good day. It was a day of clarity for me. I spent part of the day with you RP. And the truth was I didn’t get nervous or uncomfortable. In fact I didn’t think much about the crush at all.
like I’ve suspected for a long time the reality is not what I want. The fantasy you that’s what I’m crushing on.
The fantasy version of you well..... that fun. The reality is we are both unattainable. And neither really want to be attainable.
I think I am letting go on the crush. I feel good letting it go. This way I can keep my reality.