Hi Sam. It's been awhile since the last time we chatted and I'm so sorry for being so distance lately. Tonight, it took a whole lot of me to send this message to you so please bear with me. For the past months, my life here in Manila was completely fine and I thought yun lang din yun. But then it turns out different when I met a person like you. Before we started getting along, I was in the middle of my healing. Healing from the one who I thought was the one. I was thankful I met you because I was finally able to tell myself na okay na pala ako. God just used you to revealed to me that I can finally moved on in life, no need to hold on to the things that was already painfully done. But God didn't stop right there, He planted a friendship between us that I myself couldn't imagine. And I won't deny the happiness that was filled all over. But then, it all changed. When this friendship of mine, turns to something more of that. But I was afraid to tell you the truth. I was completely afraid that what we had will might turn something like ashes that was blown by the wind. So, I tried my best to figure things out but then it's too late. You already figure it out by yourself. You already decided and what can I do? Accept the reality that you know it in your heart that I was just a friend. Honestly, the day I told you that I was confused because why am I hurting was just a lie. Just an excuse for me because I wasn't confused, it was all clear to me that I had feelings for you but then God answered my prayer for not telling you the truth because of what you said. Gusto kong magalit sayo. Why? Because I asked you na di na muna tayo mag'uusap. Because the more we talked I know the more my feelings for you will get deeper and it scares me a lot for the second time. But then you asked forgiveness and wanted to be friends with me. I know the risks but I took it and allowed myself to continuously talked to you. Kahit alam kong di yun dapat. I'd rather lose sa risks na yun than losing a person that is genuinely true to me. But then talo nga ako. Talo nga yung feelings ko for you. I was also mad at you because sana nung sinabi mong you already found someone else, sana sinabi mo nalang nang mas maaga. I don't know what's your point of not telling me all of these at an early time but I'm sorry because I felt betrayed, totally hurt and I think naging selfish ka din dun sa part na yun. I know I don't have the right to say this kasi di naman ako dapat yung first person na makaalam kung anong update sa buhay mo, di ako yung taong yun. I'm sorry because I know di dapat ako nasasaktan, I shouldn't be but what can I do? What can I do to unlove a person like you? I am sorry for I have to tell this now, but siguro it's God's perfect time to finally speak up because now I will no longer hold on to you, hold on to my feelings. Di nako nagsisinungaling sayo everyday telling you na friends lang tayo, because hindi lang yun yung nararamdaman ko. And finally di na rin ako mas nagsisinungaling sa sarili ko. I can finally let go of what I in still in my heart. So, I guess this will be my last long message for you. Sorry kung napahaba I just want to tell you the truth kahit ito lang because I think di na nga talaga tayo makapag'usap. I also want to tell her I'm sorry for the disturbance that I cause. Di ko sinasadya. And I'm sorry kasi di ko napanindigan yung sinabi ko sa girlfriend mo na di ko na aaminin sayo. I prayed for this Sam for the past days, iniluluhod ko to kay Lord asking Him to guide me. But then He allowed me to tell the truth, hindi para sayo or sa kanya but God allowed me to tell all of these para sa sarili ko. To forgive myself for falling sa taong dapat kaibigan lang. Sam, I am always thankful to God for meeting you. Di man ganun kadali ang lahat but its fine as long as masaya ka. Know that my heart longs for your happiness. Always be happy Sam. Love her according sa will ni Lord. Protect her and be with her. Keep her. And now na nasabi ko na to, I can finally let myself be free from any feelings that I have for you. I will always thank God for each time that I will remember you. Ingat ka nalang palagi and God bless you more.