My life is a mess right now. I am confused regarding my future, not because I don't know what would I like as a career but mainly because I don't know what to pursure . I have to keep everything in mind before making a decision, like my family's situation - financially, emotionally. I want to study away from home, live my life, be successful, fulfill my dreams but it seems I can't have it all. My family is not wholeheartedly willing to let me study away from home. I understand their concern about increasing crime rates but then how will I learn to be independent, to be strong and brave. They can't always keep me infront of their eyes. I am so confused and stressed about my future. Everyday all I wanna do is just cry and drown in my thoughts. I don't know who to talk to, but it seems useless even if I found someone to share my sht*t. Because I am alone in my journey and in the end it's I who have to take a decision. I feel I have to sacrifice things because of the circumstances I am in.
I am just so sad, pretending everything's is okayy. But how far and till when can we run away from ourselves, our emotions and our problems. At some point sooner or later we have to face it all. Days are passing like seconds, and I;m just watching them pass. I do nothing.
God please help me.