My life is perfect. my parents are together and im litterally spoiled. yet i still feel stupid worthless and like shit. i feel like everyone hates me and that they just pity me. i hate everyone i hate that people leave me i hate that school is so hard even though i try my fucking best. i just want to smile like i feel something. i try so hard. and i get even get above average. why am i so fucking stupid. i hate everything i just want to sleep. forever. i can be happy for a day then i become sad again where i barely wanna get out of bed. i got better but this sadness is coming back to me and im scared that im gonna wanna die again.