I was a virgin half a year ago, I am still with the same guy, he is my very first boyfriend. I was 27 when I met him and now I am 28, and he is about 10 years older. He took my virginity and I guess based on my lack of experience and his tons of experience; he was never satisfied. In the beginning when I told him I was a virgin, he didn’t believe me. He was only convinced when he saw the blood on his sheets. A lot happened between us and it wasn’t great, but I still chose to be with him. I even had to leave my family to show my commitment to him. I was with him through thick and thin, providing physical, emotional, mental and financial needs. But recently, he told me he doesn’t think my heart is in the relationship and that I am not that serious with him to work on our future together. He says our values are too different and that the expectations he had for me were never met. He even claims that he doesn’t have any emotional or sexual connection with me anymore. He says I’m too emotionless and that I lack initiative. He says that since I’m asexual, I can’t satisfy him and that I don’t initiate sex because I hate it. That is not true, it’s been over 1 month since we had sex and I miss it. I miss sharing such meaningful moments together. I don’t initiate because my boyfriend lacks foreplay and I just don’t self-lubricate enough. Anyways, hearing such things from him made me really sad and heartbroken. I couldn’t sleep for days and lost my appetite. The main reason why he’s giving us another chance is because of my good heart. I feel so sad still because it seems like I seem to never be enough no matter what I do. In the beginning he told me he had a strong sex drive which is why I was confused on why we didn’t have sex more often. Apparently, he was getting tired of always initiating.Now, when I see him again, he is no longer as affectionate as before. Not only is there no sex, he doesn’t even want to touch me. I feel so discouraged and unattractive.I want to be with him, but is he really distancing himself from me? My friends and family told me to dump him because he is not worth it. He doesn’t have a stable career or income, he doesn’t have his own home, and he doesn’t even have a car. They don’t understand why I’m doing so much and having so much heartbreak over him. It’s so complicated but I genuinely like him. He was so honest and open from the beginning and so caring towards me and what’s made me fall in the beginning.It’s so unfair to me when he says I don’t initiate. I’m a very physical person, so I show people my feelings through touch. This is why I love giving and receiving hugs. But whenever I try to hug him, he always rejects them. So I wait for him to do it, but he only hugs me when he feels like it. He doesn’t even kiss me because he calls me a horrible kisser. It was because he’s my first in everything and I just lacked too much experience overall. I know relationships are complicated but is it worth it at this point? I told myself that I wouldn’t leave him for someone else or because he lacked superficial means. I told myself that I would only leave him if he no longer is genuinely interested and has no more feelings for me. But is it time? Are these the red flags I needed to know that our relationship is bound to fail?Im so sad and conflicted and disappointed.