endless void

School Depression PogChamp

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Help. I want to be homeschooled but I can’t. My mom and dad work so they can’t teach me. I have told my mom how much I hate school and how it’s an endless void that makes me feel empty and worthless and no matter how hard I study I still get horrible marks. I also told her that I cry every night dreading the next day knowing I have to socialize and work so hard till the point I have a headache and yet still get a bad mark. I don’t think it’s the teachers because this has been happening for five years and everybody else gets better marks so maybe I’m just stupid. People don’t think bad of me but I still think they hate me. When I have a headache I’m too scared to get up and get the teacher because when I stand up it feels like everybody’s watching me. I know they're not, but I can’t shake the feeling that everybody’s looking at me. When I’m at my desk I feel like I’m in chains, I can’t move, I can’t do anything but work. It's like a prison. I feel lost whenever it’s recess, everybody’s playing with their friends but I’m just alone. I feel dizzy and sick but it’s worse when I talk to people, I feel like I’m gonna throw up or faint. The fact that my only source of happiness is anime and video games is scary. I do have some friends but they don't really care about my feelings. I do everything for them I care for them but they do nothing in return and I can't get new ones because no one else likes me so I guess I have to sit at my desk depressed, feeling worthless and stupid for 4 more months untill I have to do it all over again. If you want to talk be my guest lol my discord is marrrr#5298 :)