i had for a while talked to my school nurse about my famili problems and the death of my cousin. one day i came in to her office and told her that i was going to kill my self. she asked if there was annything i wanted to do before i did it, and i said i wanted to have a boyfriend. after that she ignored me. what i got from she said is that i shoud get a boyfriend and then kill my self. the sadest thing is that my cousin killed himself to. i did not want to do it to right after, becouse i did not want to brake my autn and my other cousins heart.