Dear Sean, I hate you but am thankful for you. You made me feel worthless and therefore, I accepted the love I felt I deserved which was a toxic, manipulative, addicting kind of love. The type of love that drives you crazy with rage and anger and constant disappointment, but also the type of love that I would always go back to. You broke me. That as simple as it gets. You hurt me and made me feel crazy and undeserving. And for that I will never forgive you. Every time you did something, I forgave you because you manipulated me into thinking that I was a "stupid whore" who didn't know what I was thinking about. And every time I forgave you, I thought that you would change, but it never happened. Time and time again I gave you more chances than you deserved because I thought that you were as good as I deserved. My friends were right about you all along and at times I wish I would have listened to them. But now that I am looking back on things, I am glad I didn't listen because if I listened and let you go sooner, I would not have learned some lessons. 1) never let a man manipulate you 2) never let a man treat you like a second option3) never let a man call you a whore, a slut, a bitch4) never let a man blame you for his wrong doings5) never let a man make you feel undeserving of loveEven though you made it hard for me to open up now because I had to rebuild the walls that you broke down, I forgive you. Even though you make me question any relationship I have had since you, I forgive you. I forgive you for all that you have caused me because I realized that you taught me that I am an amazing women who deserves an amazing man and not the piece of shit that you are.