I am a big coward.i have suicidal thoughts all the time and I am addicted to cutting my wrist and hurting myself bc it gives me some kind of relief.i think being born is my mistake and i should be the one making it right so I have to kill myself.but i can't do it till the end.i have everything prepared in advance but for the last step...i get scared of death. What will happen after? Will i truly be fine like this?or will the pain get harder? I have no goal in my life. No one truly loves me and no one has ever given me affection before.Iam longing for a home. a someone to accept me for who I am to love me with all my bad habits. for a home I'll only feel needed and not a burden. I can't do this anymore.