i just relapsed on self harm. i was done with it for about a month and half and i don’t know how to feel about it to be honest. i feel like i can’t talk about it with anyone. anytime i’ve tried i get yelled at and i now i don’t know who to turn to for advice. the one person i know will understand where i’m coming from has been a great help, but i don’t know how to tell them that i relapsed. i feel like i failed myself but above that i feel like i’ve failed that person. i don’t even know i’m supposed to be feeling right now honestly, at the same time i feel awful and i want to get help for this because i know it’s only going to cause pain for me and my friends and on the other hand i feel indifferent about it. i just don’t know who i came talk to about this to get help. my family will get mad and i don’t want to deal with the consequences of talking to them and my life changing and i can’t talk to any of my friends so i don’t burden them with my problem because they aren’t my therapist. if your read all of that i wanna say sorry for feeling that i might have caused, but i also want to say thank you for at least taking to time to hear me.