Ok so I only recently learned about sensory overload so I may not have the right understanding but when I read about it it sounds right. I love my family I promise I do but when we get together I want to be anywhere else. I’m happy to see people but sitting with my family too long makes me feel bad. There are too many people, everything is too loud, and how is the house always too cold. I love my family but I want to escape. Their voices grate on my nerves and I want it to stop. I remember being a little girl trying to turn up the tv while the family talked but the tv volume was already maxed out and I still couldn’t hear the tv. That is how loud my 20+ family gatherings are. Every time I try to sit with them I want to be with them but every time someone talks I want to put a pillow over my head. I can’t engage or I might say how much I want everyone to shut up. This quarantine was so horrible for so many people but I felt great not going to weekly gatherings I knew were going to leave me feeling angry, disconnected, self loathing, exhausted and cold. We are vaccinated now so the family is getting bold and wanting to come together again. I love the idea of seeing family again but in practice I just want out. Today we got together and all I wanted was some earplugs to tune everyone out. It wasn’t even a big gathering but I could already feel myself wanting to hide in the bathroom.Is this sensory overload? Anyone have any suggestions for stopping this?