I already don't know what to do. Can i give up? I was very tired. Several times this week I have contemplated suicide. But a part of me made me realize that I still had responsibilities. I'm the oldest child in my family. My two sisters are still in school. I have experienced racism from a young age. People who don't know me call me. I have survived. Pretend I didn't see and hear them. But the more I mature the defense I make gets weaker. I am tired. I kept thinking about my two younger siblings while I was thinking about suicide. I'm afraid that someday I have to leave them. I really want to see them go to college. But my parents couldn't even pay for my tuition. I sometimes pray to God to give me strength to last even longer.