My girlfriend caught me jacking off to gay porn, said nothing about it, but was clearly daunted.
I feel like this is a conversation that will turn into an argument we have already had multiple times and I just don't feel like I'm capable of handling it anymore.
She knows I am non-binary and sexually motivated, and I know that she is not. I think we both have tried to ignore the elephant in the room that I want to be sexually active and she doesn't.
I'm a huge flirt, it's not just a means to a sexual end but just part of how I interact with people and it makes me feel good to flirt and boost other people's egos as well as my own.
Neither of us feels comfortable with poly relationships.
I love her but I'm not happy in our relationship, I'm unhappy in our relationship but I don't want her to be unhappy.