I am dying inside. The girl I like is going on her vacation with her boyfriend. She acts like she cares me. Well maybe because we are friends. Listening her vacation plans i just smoke and went to uni and she found that i smoke. Then she was so mad at me that she didn’t even talk to me for hours. She confuses me a lot. I asked her to leave me on my own. She knows about my feelings. I asked her if she can leave everything and come to me and she said no even she wasn’t with her bf cause she is STRAIGHT. Yaah I m girl and into her. We had also kiss while she was in relationship. But she lied to me and went with her boyfriend . After that, Suicide thoughts did came into me but all i did was smoking.