Fuck this shit I want back my old life. Please, if there's anyone who have to suffer please just let it be me alone! I can handle shit since I was a little, things are good and I can cope even tho sometimes it makes me feel suicidal or shit like that but please not this. Please. My sis been overwhelmed because she suspected that my parents r fighting. She told me the whole story and now, I feel like it's all my fault. For fuck's sake just let me suffer alone! Don't lump in my family I'm so fucking done! I hate myself, fuck this fuck fuck fuck! I'm such a useless and a mess I shouldn't exist in the first place! I can't take this anymore it's getting worst and worst! I wanna run but there's no where to go 😭 I don't feel like myself. I don't fucking know myself! Who am I? I DON'T HAVE A FUCKING IDEA! Stop please. I can't take this anymore! Should've killed myself back then. Life is meaningless. Stop dreaming and rot. Fuck my life.