Life has sucked so much lately. I think about dying way too much. I’m constantly feeling alone and stupid. I’m a mother of 2. I have a husband. It’s been almost 4 years since he’s cheated on me. I lay awake most nights thinking of how much he hates me. Even though he says he doesn’t. I’ve gained tons of weight. I’m not who I once was. A couple of nights ago he got mad at me for being needy and stormed off. Dented up the car a bit. He just got it fixed TODAY. I went to the store today with my son. He’s a handful. Well, I hit a car on my way out of the parking lot. I HAVE NO IDEA HOW. but I know I hit them. At first I didn’t even know. I drove off and then parked again a few spaces down because my son took his seatbelt off, and that’s when I saw.
I did it.
I feel terrible.
ive been driving for 9 years and this is my first time doing something like this. Their bumper was so damaged. My car wasn’t half as bad.
HOW DID I DO THIS?
I stayed and cried and panicked. I wanted to see them so badly so I could go talk to them. But I left.
i don’t work. I don’t have any income. I just paid for my groceries through SNAP AND WIC. My husband just fixed the car and I did this. I panicked.
I can’t sleep. I feel terrible for what I did. Being afraid shouldn’t have excused my actions. I don’t know what to do. I’m so worthless and I’m just so sorry for being a shitty human.