I have been through 4 relationships and they all end up in me breaking up with my partner. I don't even know why I bother starting a relationship when it ends with me breaking up with them. I feel so bad every time it happens, all the things we said/promised to each other and I ruin it. Looking at the reasons why, it was always due to my circumstances that make it difficult to continue the relationship (spending time together physically is difficult, and spending time together online is also difficult). I told myself I must really consider and anticipate the possible hiccups before thinking about starting a relationship but clearly I haven't done enough.