I'm almost 20 and have not kissed anyone yet. I've always had trouble getting close to people, even as friends. I think that this year has reinforced my tendency to isolate and it will be difficult to break out of that once it's safe to meet with people in person again. I want to find someone to love and be loved by, but I don't really know how to flirt or tell when someone is flirting with me. The way I talk to people I have feelings for is the same as I talk to other people, but with more anxiety. On Facebook I see that a lot of people I know are currently married or just in a long-term relationship. I was in relationship briefly more than two years ago and haven't dated anyone since. From what I've heard from my ex, she's been in some other relationships since. I want to move on too (and I have, emotionally), but I haven't found anyone yet. I have had crushes and a few people had feelings for me, but to my knowledge nothing has been mutual. If a friend told me that they were judging themself based on their lack of experience with relationships, I would be quick to say that doesn't determine a person's value. Still, when I compare my own experiences to what I perceive as normal, I think there's something wrong with me and I feel frustrated with myself.