a view from the building top, a view from the floor for the sky. the view from somewhere that misshapes the things below. it would make anyone wonder the distance to the ground, right?
i look down,
"what if i fell."
i stare to the people below. i do get up,
i turn around showing the back of my body to everything below.
"how would this feel, would it be calming?"
i hear a few shrieks, a few shouts, a few discouraging and encouraging words for the plans ahead of me.
"you won't do it will ya, don't be a pussy!" "stop, this isn't the only way,"
but it was. the only way.
i smile, the wind was nice and snow started to fall. it had just rained and the weather was perfect. i looked nice today too.
"well," i say. "now or never."
i let go of my stance, falling to the people. oh it was calming i thought. the air blew up and it felt like everything was racing by me.
all i did was smile, oh how i was stupid.
"no, this isn't what i wanted. "