tw/ sh + su*c*dei dont know what to do. in the past ive suffered from self harm and every so often i’ll end up relapsing because i dont have a proper coping mechanism. sometimes i’ll have thoughts of suicide and i can’t help it, i just don’t know what to do. i need to talk to someone but i don’t want to go to my friends or anyone about it because they’ll just worry too much. plus they’re all dealing with things too, they shouldn’t have to deal with my problems at all. i can’t talk to my parents about it because they’ll just get overly worried and i don’t want to reach out to a hotline or something like that because i don’t feel like i deserve to- i’d be wasting their time. like i wouldn’t actually end my life but sometimes i want to.i have to force myself out of bed but most of the time ill just lay about and then all the stresses of school will come flooding back because i haven’t done it. i just feel so lost. but ill be safe.