I feel so sad and lost. I’ve become addicted to cutting again, and since I shoplifted bigger blades they’ve gotten deeper. I’m neglecting myself. I don’t shower or brush my teeth as often as I need to. I’m trapped in the worst period of depression of my life and my parents are threatening to hospitalize me for it. Online school is killing me. I’m having dreams where I die and I wake up disappointed they didn’t come true. I want it all to end.