I used to self harm when I was a younger, and I never told my now husband. The reason he has never noticed the scars is simple - he's just never taken the time to really look at my body. I felt like I had to get married quickly because my family is Christian. I am forever a people pleaser. I can never be fully myself in this relationship. Now I feel so trapped and lonely, I day dream about being loved completely, or at least being free. Shouldn't you be able to be your whole, horrible, beautiful, unique self with your partner? Why did I do this? Why am I so stupid?