I don't like going outside. I don't like celebrating my birthday. I just want to be alone but at the same time I don't want to be alone. Whenever I step out of my house I feel the judging stares of people on me and it makes me very anxious.
My friends they are all good people but I just don't get along with them. I don't feel like I am myself around them. I just want someone to accept me for who I am , I want someone who make me feel at ease, someone who won't judge my face or body , someone who understands me, someone I can talk to without having to filter my words and even without makeup and fancy clothes they see me as their friend.