Idk what I've been feeling for the past few years. I think there's something wrong with me, but a part of me doesn't think so. I feel numb and identifying emotions is difficult for me. That's why I ask others what I'm supposed to feel in a certain situation or if it's normal to feel a certain emotion.
Sometimes, I feel like it's just loneliness. I also don't know the reason behind why I feel upset and such. I hurt people without me knowing why I hurt them. Putting on a facade is easy. Making different types of me is easy. But, when I ask myself and wonder, who am I really?
Maybe I just need to drown these out by drinking water or sleeping. I could also probably do some activities I used to love. Until then, I must remain a shell without a soul.
Idk, this whole thing I wrote seems kind off cringe...? Smh