I took my ring off today . It may sound like no big deal but it was. See for quite a while I wore it even though the marriage it symbolized was full of pain, mistrust, disrespect, and lies. You see this wasn't my plan. I was engaged before but didn't get married because I knew it would end in divorce. I was raised that those vows meant something. To love, honor, cherish and respect the man I loved. To not just give up threw sickness and health, better or worse, till death do us part. What I didn't realize is I wasn't really breaking those vows. See it turns out I made it till death . Sounds crazy right because I'm writing this I took my ring off right? Well the woman who took that ring off today was mourning the death of the woman she was. My marriage killed her, it killed the happy, loving, giving ,amazing person she was. There was a time that I was filled with happiness. My house filled with love, laughter, smiles, all the good stuff. Don't get me wrong it is ok to not be all sunshine and butterflies. Life is not perfect arguments, disagreements they happen it's normal. But how they are handled matters. The words that are said matter. Actions oh dear Lord can they speak louder than a million words screamed from the highest mountain at a unbearable pitch. They hurt , steal self worth, happiness, and the will to live from even the most loving person. I woke up today, but so did so many people. Today I am making the choice that the death of my previous self is enough. And I'm sure people will have opinions, they won't agree with my decision. I am ready I am strong enough to deal with it. And if someone reading this is in the same place it's okay, it's even okay if your not ready to walk away. But please remember you are something. Instead of my family saying goodbye to me in a casket in a room filled with tears wondering how or why this happened all because I didn't want to break my vows I woke up today. I am sitting alone in a room filled with tears mourning my prior self. But it is okay I will be ok. I will become a new me. It will be hard but I will wake up tomorrow, and hopefully many days to come. I will smile again, laugh, learn to love the new me. I have life to live, a story to write. And the first chapter is "I took my ring off Today".