TW: self harm, e.d.i wish they knew how much i torture myself because of what i did in the past. i also wish they knew about how i tried to kms from their terrible comments about me. i wish they knew how much their words meant. i wish they knew about when i starved myself because whenever i ate they used to say shit. i wish they knew about how i had to raise my siblings when they werent there, yet they still convinced my siblings that i’m the bad guy. i wish i had more people in my life to talk to about this. i wish i had someone that would love me instead of backing away when i overshared about my internal struggles. i wish i didnt have to wish for all of this to go away.