I feel like there is a certain standard for teenagers these days. You need to have the latest trainers or the newest phone to fit in. And having an outfit from last season is a joke. For me i felt like I didn't fit in at all. With my cheap clothes and worn it shoes. The sad thing is I have amazing taste but I just don't have the clothes to afford it. My parents were poor and I hated it. I don't think I have one decent "friend". If I can call them that. The moment you make one mistake they will ditch you and find another girl to gossip with. They valued people on how expensive their clothes were. So I was at the bottom of the list. I got bullied my whole childhood. So when it came to high school I told lies cover up. I thought that people would like me better if I made a new version of myself. But one lie lead to another. I feel like if I own up I would go back to being the weak little girl that looks like an easy target. I didn't want that. So I carried on lying. Which was another mistake. Now I fit in but it's getting harder for me to lie and make excuses. I feel like the moment I own up people will hate me. Because who would like the real me if I even don't like the real me. So if you are reading this please take my advice and don't make the mistake of telling a lie. Because one lie will always lead to another. And if you feel like you don't fit in then don't. Because why fit in when you were born to stand out. Don't dig yourself in to the same hole I did. An remember next time you want to lie, think of me, the girl who had nothing but convinced herself she had everything and made the biggest mistake of her life.