You deserve everything you've been through and will go through. Just because you're privileged doesn't make you better. And I hope the feeling of abandonment sets in real good. What you long for is all that you will see around you and through out your miserable life. You can say karma all you want. You started it. You were so bothered you reached out like an idiot. Reach out to someone who didn't want to reach back or even meet you half way. You say you're done but we were done years ago. I hope you are truly done because the next time you reach out that life line won't be there.