A big question for me "The confidence", probably it is a quest for me. As, I was not brought in this way, I was educated enough to have a living and probably was much open to liberal feminism. As I was loved equally as much my brother was, much more, I must confess. So, when you come across the lunatic individuals, who personally believes that women are just to breed and to give sanskaras to their kids, what can be more vulnerable place to this girl who is completely opposite to such thoughts, same was with me, as I was not in a position to disagree because arguing with a fool confirms that there are two, as other person was quite defensive and was supported. So, from the beginning, I had set my boundaries because it was difficult for me to find my place. Nothing can be more sensitive to the person if he or she is every second portrayed unfit and still loyalty is expected from them. So it was a mental dilemma for me but still, I survived and dug my place out of odds. I tried with full jest to prove my working ability as blot for working women was not much acceptable for me. But still, somethings are left unturned and I feel victorious when personally I feel changes in their ideology which was once so anticipated. Now the question comes of confidence, according to me confidence is an entity, a thing which needs to be practised as doctrine. Seriously, the extent of your exposure on a particular field gives you confidence and it is a fact you cannot just come and tag someone lacking something. No one thinks what he/she is going through, what things you had done to him/her. Or what you are doing as I'm known to everything as I'm not blind. For instance if I'm doing and credit is handed to someone else, still confidence is questioned. Once, my junior asked for a holiday and for that I was supposed to take permission from my seniors in general, fortunately, she shared the same name as my mess cook. Upon asking this my senior understood that mess cook is asking for a holiday and then blues came when I heard, if this is so, then ask someone, who is looking after mess. I didn't ask the mess manager for the holiday because he was on holiday. Well, this was not expected as I was looking after mess all the time, I was mess manager once, but trust in masculine gender shredded that thing and brought that manager tag to other, who was a male colleague of course. This thing reminded me that what I was doing whole time is going unnoticed, when I was accompanying my mess manager I used to pick every veggie from my hands, all things he has to do was to pay off. I never felt bad about it but now I had started noticing. Confidence is all about management and your skills, how easily you pacify someone. Your ease to deal is your confidence. This veggie thing is just a small example, there are a lot more things but are quite contradictory. As their writings, everything is done by me but still, talent word is not for me and is framed for the one who is masculine. Your's Anonymous.