I feel so stupid for craving him, wanting him. I know I shouldn't have these feelings I just hope that nobody in my family finds out about this. I'll be doomed. Is it crazy or stupid I want him so badly and care for him more then my family? I mean shouldn't I love and care for my family more then him? But no matter what I do I feel myself getting pulled to him. I wish I could just ignore these feelings and thoughts for him.