Super happy form outside destroyed by insideIn my friends group I am the funny one like in school I’m one of the popular pass my day happy but, when I am about to sleep I cry scared of dying of my grades of not being who my parents want me to be. Like my grandpa just passed away I had so many regrets until he came in my dreams and told it was fine and hugged me I was sad and happy sad because my grandpa is dead and happy because he came to see me. But I feel destroyed I just wanna be happy I hear to my grandpa’s songs now and then and I cry. I just wanna be happy I am to young to be feeling like this I am fucking 12 for fuck saint i just wanna be happy I even think of killing my self and I dare to tell you I am not to fucking young to be feeling this I need help.