Awhile ago, I got mad just because I saw my sister then I started kicking the box. My mother saw me and got mad and said hurtful words which made me angrier so i went to my room and started throwing my stuff and my mother who followed me shouted at me that she gave up on me and there is really a problem with me and that I am a demon and that I should stop breaking stuff which made me think if they wont let me hit my sister and they wont let me hit my stuff or throw it what do they want me to do?! hit myself ?! so when she left that is how I cope with my anger i started hitting myself. and yes even tho i drink my meds or not. i couldnt control my temper anymore.