I feel like I wasn’t meant for people to help me. I don’t understand what I am supposed to feel when someone tries to help me. Am I just that stupid? I feel bad for everyone around me and I feel so lonely and I just want someone to make it go away. I don’t understand why people say I’m strong because I’m just an emotional mess and I am use and mean and I don’t open up easily. I’m also a active liar, even if it’s mainly about little things I’m still a shitty sister and shitty friend. I’m sorry red.