I wish if everything is different. I wish if I wasn't gay to be in the closet in the first place. you see my parents are Arabic and me coming out will kill them in the spot. I don't want to come out, either way, I just want to stop caring about people suspecting and trying to incriminate me with my existing homosexuality.I don't engage in any sexual behavior with any soul and my phone is not called at all, I am completely alone and it is ok.I am writing here to low a bit of steam.PS. this is the first time I am writing or talking about my situation and this saddens me.