I know I shouldn't even try
But sometimes I want to try "one last time" to text him and think (like an idiot) maybe this time he'll reply ..
My logic is convinced that is just bullshit I'm seeking to make myself feel better about the bullshit of guys ..
My logic also understands that I shouldn't even think about trying
So I can sometimes hold back ..
This is so shitty ..
When someone you've known for so long texts you reply you fuckin idiot.
We were gonna live a lifetime together ..