Imagine your life passing by you and you are there sitting still. You fill your moments with binge eating, drinking, keep your house and your thoughts messy, cursing and blaming yourself then you go out and do it all over again. You're there sitting on your damn couch, looking at all the misery in your life ...and it suddenly hits you! I am gonna get up and start fixing it all!! You take 10 straight hours to convince yourself and you are right!!!! You freakin did it!!! You turn over you get up...you grab and light a cigarette and get back to your couch...and you sink slowly right back to your own hell.