God bless that friend of yours. Already I was in to deep. Fell for you hard. When I heard them words from someone you called a friend, I guess it hurt and helped both at the same time. YOU KNOW HE IS JUST USING YOU, DONT YOU? Well fuck. I had hoped it was different. For once I wanted to believe. And enjoy. And be happyBut the hurt was the shock value I needed to pull back. Not in time. Cuz I still hurt. A miss you. And think about you to much. Your voice when u sing. Your energy and life you bring into the apartment. I pulled back. And have so much regret fo doing so. Did I avoid the worst of what the pain could have been? No.I've just learned how to hide it better to avoid unwanted attention Damn you. I miss you. I just want your arms around me holding me tight. Your calm voice and demeanor. I miss just watching you tear shit up. Funny that the chaos in the room I would have blown up about with anyone else. I enjoyed it. I miss it. I Miss you.