Holidays have always been special with my family and ever since the passing of my grandmother things have never been the same but people still tried to make the holidays as amazing as they used to be. Then several years later my grandfather passed and yet the family still tried. Now the family farm has been sold. Many have gone their separate ways driving wedges between each other as they left. Nothing is the same. No one seems to care about trying to be a family anymore but me and I honestly don't know if I want to bring children into this mess. Covid has put the final nail in the coffin for our family holidays giving everyone the excuse they needed to not come around. The holidays used to be my favorite time of year and now all I wish is for them to be over already.