I feel myself starting to get suspicious again. I feel like she is looking at guys on her phone and I know I’m probably wrong but the thought is in my head. I think it’s going to help to write about it every time I feel this way. I don’t think I’m right but I need a way to vent and get the thought out of my head when I think it. I don’t want to stew about it ans let the thought grow and consume that much space in my head. I need to stop doing this to myself. Torturing myself with these imaginary suspicions.