Anytime i went out before rona i would get shit face drunk, i have anxiety so when it would get stupid fucking hot inside the club i would go upstairs to get air by myself ( I didn’t wanna ruin my friends fun). One night i got stupid drunk and was getting a drink these guys that had been there all night (we had talked to them earlier just causally) were in line behind me. I got my drink and one of the guys took me back to his car, I couldn’t even walk straight and we tried messing around in his car...my cousin was looking for me and she found me...she was pissed and I totally understand why...i was so embarrassed and i hate that night but it always come to mind. Anything i’ve ever done that I consider embarrassing always comes to my head and i fucking hate it. I just want it to leave me alone.