You dumb, stupid fuck. What have you done to my heart? I haven't been this needy for anyone's attention in over two years. You make my heart flutter like nothing else and I can't stop grinning like an idiot whenever you talk to me. I have no idea how you feel about me, but even so, I know you would be kind about letting me down because you are just a big fucking Golden Retriever in human form.I barely know how to handle you. I want what's best for you and you make me proud with seeing these little improvements in your behaviour. Even if we never end up together, I am so goddamn happy just being your friend. You seriously underestimate your own abilities to make people smile and how to make them feel good about themselves. You bully me into actually being productive despite my ADHD acting up. Why? Because my brain fucking hyper-focuses on wanting to make you proud of me and ugh.I'm nearly 25. Why do I feel like 15 again? Are you seriously making me fall in love with you? How rude. I want to speak up about my feelings, but it makes me so nervous. I'm losing all doubt about what I'm feeling. It terrifies me but at the same time, it makes me so happy. I thought that after my last relationship, I wouldn't be able to allow myself to let someone in again. Even if things never work out - Thank you for proving me wrong ♥You are an amazing person.