hey kd, this one's for you.i know you've been feeling down lately. i promise you, she was never worth your love or attention. you approached her at her lowest, and you too were vulnerable. all she did was use you as a stepping stool to get her life back on track again. then she moved on. in your eyes, she was the one you'd spent the rest of your life with. in her eyes, you were just a distraction. you want to be loved and cherished like there's no one else in the world except you. but he has her attention, and he has her heart. you hate him but he's all you've ever wanted to be. she sees him as perfect, someone she can talk to for hours, someone she can turn to when there's no one else there. it was meant to be you. that's all that's on your mind right now.you constantly hurt yourself, thinking it's your fault she didn't choose you. but she was wrong, she couldn't see the potential in you. most importantly, she couldn't stay by your side when you were sad, and comfort you. she didn't put in the effort that's needed in a relationship, but i know you always did. that's why you find it so hard to cope without her, because you did everything for her and your whole existence relied around her. but listen to me kd, there's no prologue to life. once you end it, there's no coming back. you've always told me how you wanted to go see clairo, learn to play the guitar, start skating, start a family. you planned your whole future. yeah, it might've been with her, but who's to say someone else won't come along? you're still young, do you really think you'd meet your soulmate in your first ever relationship? a first relationship is a learning experience, it's so unlikely you end up with your first love. don't let that put you off love completely. for now, take a break from everything, but i know one day you'll find beauty and elegance in someone else. someone else who won't break your heart and leave you helpless. you give up too easily, you need to push through the hardships. if not for me, then do it for yourself. i know you deleted all your socials but i hope you're doing better. i hope there's someone you find comfort in other than me, because i guess you really had to leave everything behind that reminded her of you, including me.i love you bestfriend. im sorry for everything.