Have eluded me for 28 years. For the first time today I envisioned a world that could possibly not have me in it. I have thought about living for so selfishly long that when I Realized my world is shrinking I was left with heartache. I’m watching these people I love and cared about drift away. Either because they have passed or best friends become strangers. My mom was suppose to live forever. And I was so certain of it.
I feel., for the first time, in this faucet of my life, terrified.