hi to all the wonderful people reading this,
i know that i dont have the worst story ever but i am broken and hurt. at my school i am known as the girl everyone knows and talks to, i am approachable, funny, kind and always happy. some people talk to me about their pain and problems and i listen. they say thanks for listening and i nod and talk to them about random stuff. watching my friends go through pain and all that makes my heart break. the thing is, is that they think i have the most perfect life anyone could ask for. that i have no problems at all. i dont tell them my problems and pain because im not good at expressing my feelings. they dont know that i have massive insecurities. they dont know that i am crying lakes at night. i havent told my parents because they will probably say that im over exaggerating.
i feel like i cant tell anyone because they wont understand. if you havent seen the movie called the DUFF, it stands for Designed Ugly Fat Friend. every single friend group i go to i am the DUFF. i am so suicidal and i dont know what to do anymore. but i know that i cant kill myself because i worry about my family, friends, besties and people i am close to might go through. my mum always tells me that you have to be comfortable in your own skin. im not. i am not comfortable with my personality, my body and my life in general.
i dont know how to know if you have depression but i have been feeling this way since year 4. I am now in year 6. i guess i just have to put a face on and act. people never know what people are going through. people dont know what other people are doing at night.
from a 11 year old girl