They say I'm the worse for being too addicted to the Internet, They say I'm being dramatic, They say if you need help I'm here but they aren't, They say you need to smile more, They say we will love you for who you are, They say Internet is not good for you, They say that she's/he's better than you, They say your worthless, They say you're too chill.I'm a teenager, I guess you could say I'm addicted to the Internet but there is always a reason everything, right?. I'm depressed and I know it, When I try to talk about it with my parents, I'm being too dramatic. I tried to get help from a hot line but they didn't answer me, My mother always told to smile more when in reality the smile they see aren't real the smile they see is just a mask to hide my broken soul. My parents would always scold me and say Internet is not good for you when Internet was my only comfort when nobody did, They compared me to everybody, they compared me to my classmates, I'm used to try my best but in the end I gave up, it was not worth cause I know one day that I'll leave earth, I'm on the edge of just completely giving up and ending my life, I planned so many suicide attempts but in the end I'm just a coward. My father left me when I was 4 years old, when he came back I thought, finally I have a dad... but I regretted rejoicing that moment when today I'm being emotionally abused. Chill isn't the right word to describe me... It's gave up, I've already given up. I'm just waiting to succumb to my depression and finally kill myself. I do hope that maybe I can escape this but I know I won't... Now, don't become like me, don't give up, keep on going because giving up is not a good feeling.