i might see my brother soon. i haven’t seen him in over 7 years. he doesn’t know me anymore, i’m a completely different person. i get so uncomfortable when he texts me, i never know how to respond. it takes me hours to come up with one line of words to say. i hate that i feel like this about him. i shouldn’t feel like this he’s my own brother. i’m starting to feel like reaching out to him was a mistake. i can’t handle all of this, it’s all happening to fast. i want to see him but not yet. how am i supposed to tell my own brother i’m to scared to see him? i can’t tell him, i’d feel like a terrible person if i did. so i’ll have to suffer in silence. it’s happening to fast. he doesn’t even know me.